Monday, June 28, 2010

Poem: Initiation, or, the Mystery of the Tower

or, the Mystery of the House of God

& when at last i hold the key
after searching, & searching, & feeling lost
i wonder was it wrong of me
to value thressholds never crossed

& when at last i try the lock
without once stopping thinking twice
i find i barely had to knock
in fact a whisper would suffice

& when -- at last! an opened door!
no more of would or could or might
i wonder what i waited for
Time is & always has been right

& when, at last, my steps are through
no failing -- no trying --
no fear
no fear
i find i only needed to
to see a thing familiar here.

nothing real can be threatened
nothing unreal exists
therein lies the grace of God

(a course in miracles)

yes these are all copyright Jo(h)anna F(aust) aka a.q.d.
Do not reproduce without the express permission of the author.

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Poem: all of me to All of You

all of me to All of You

or, prologemena to any future understanding

Reflected in the eyes you see

i live forever now

and never once the same

as Gods, create; as mortals, dream

alone together fear

the secrets in this game

I Find I Give You All Of Me

& you i know you know

that beauty is a dare

for what you see you merely - seem

though every thing is Here

I am a mirror: stare

written circa 1984-5

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Monday, June 21, 2010



If we all dedicated just one of those special, private moments that almost all of us regularly experience...

From a magickal perspective, the result would be breathtaking. Miraculous. And -- not a moment too soon.

If you are a sceptic -- what could it hurt? You're going to do it anyway, and you probably weren't going to dedicate it at all.

If not – why not? The part where you create a physical symbolic link – you can leave that part out, if its too difficult or weird for you. And you don't have to tell anyone that you actually did it.

You could forward this email purely as a curiosity.

I read about this idea most recently on Twitter. It is an excellent way to focus our healing or miracle energies, initialize them if you will, and heal the Gulf of Mexico. Its an idea which I know from personal experience would probably work. So much so that I had to write this letter. The situation is too serious. We have to try everything. And this is something surely most of us can do.

I hope this isn't too weird an idea for the more straight-laced among you. It's based on methodologies that are tried and true. Research them for yourself. You can use the search terms "sex magick" and "talisman" and "sigil" and "visualization" to get you started.

Or take my word for it (although maybe you don't know me, and I just got your address in the course of years of lists and ads &c). Since i bet it would work, since the theory works with other things too, and since this situation is as bad as it is, I am telling everyone (and i mean everyone) – anyone – any way I can. Please, please, pass the idea on. Tell people,forward the email, repost the tweet, repost the video, photocopy the flyer, whatever. Please.

If this idea offends your sensibilities, hey, my apologies. Thank you for your time. Please do whatever it is you do in your world to most effectively help the situation. Please. In my opinion, as long as you have enough to eat and you are not otherwise in immediate physical danger, there really isn't anything you have on your agenda more important than halting and reversing this catastrophe in the Gulf of Mexico. So, please, however you pray, pray. And have a nice day.

If you don't already know how magick works -- that is, if you don't "believe" in magick – here's you're chance to have a little fun. Treat this like a game, or better yet, like the scientific experiment that it is. If you were going to do everything by the book, I would say, keep a record, a journal entry before you begin: briefly note the time, date, where you are, what you had to eat, what you are wearing -- who is with you -- etc. Of course you may have to put this in some sort of code, if you have reason to think what you are about to do offends anybody.

Keep a record, and keep it bounded it time -- or it could devolve into superstition. Superstition is doing a symbolic gesture without understanding it. Don't do that. That's like allowing the ads on tv to control your actions. That's bad. It the very least, that is ineffective and inexact.

But I digress. The more detailed version of the idea goes like this:

Do the following, at least once. Do it more than once if you can. Do it once a day if you want. If you want a specific time, how about 9:56 in the evening (that's when Wikipedia says the Deepwater Horizon Wellhead explosion occurred).

Clear your mind.

Be facing the gulf if possible, sitting or lying down or whatever.

Visualize how you feel (how you will have felt) with the objective accomplished. You don't have to know how it got that way -- only that it did. Not how you might feel, not how it could be or even how it will be – feel how it IS -- to know that your objective has already happened...

One more thing -- it helps to make a symbolic representation. Not a description, like these words, or the sound of these words, but something more direct, more unmediated. Your own personal doodle of some kind. The post on Twitter said get a globe or other modern map of Earth. I suppose a two dimensional representation would do as well. Keep it on display in your home or at work – where everyone can see the part that corresponds to the Gulf, the part that you know been written on, as it were, with your very own extra-special super-duper extra-heavy-duty Secret Formula Magick Wish Sauce...

Don't worry if your mind wanders while you are generating this. Once you have even if only for a moment felt how it feels with your objective already accomplished, it is OK to let your mind wander to more frivolous things, even sexually arousing things. The symbolic representation is keeping your place for you. Have fun. Make it a good one. Before you know it you will have all you need. The link is a toggle, either you make it or you don't, so don't worry about the amount. The barest minimum is as much a link as buckets.

Apply some to your representation. If you are using a globe, anoint the Gulf of Mexico. I know for some of you that's the weird part -- like I said, it is optional, though very strongly advised. It's also the part that made me think this could work. You can research the subject on your own: I think you will agree.

Make sure to keep it in a prominent place when its not – in use....

That's it. That's all! Nothing to it, huh? Wait and see....


If we all come together, we can work miracles.


right now


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Sunday, June 20, 2010

Magickal people: Get ye your Asses Into Gear!

This is the letter I sent out to my Brethren.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

A Call to Sacrificial Duty

There is no Work Greater than That of Halting & Reversing

the Events Currently Unfolding Undersea

at the Deepwater Horizon Macondo Wellhead

I, Soror Raphael, being a Member of Our Illustrious Order by some reckonings, and a Member in Good Standing by none, do nonetheless, by virtue of the indissoluble bond to which my very being proves daily, do hereby call for an Universal Working and Sacramental Offering by all of the members of our Order, in good standing or otherwise, as well as by all Associates, Minervals, and other ancillary Stars in the company of these Stars; as well as all members of the Ecclessia Gnostica Catholica; of the Shadowy A.'.A.'.; those who conduct the Elusinian Mysteries, those who explore the Boundaries of the Spirit, Enochian, Goetic, Theurgic, or Synthetic; as well as all the friends and acquaintances necessarily attracted thereunto, and any others whatsoever, if they be but sufficiently skilled and capable.

Let them obtain a representation of the Terrestrial Orb, entire, and well marked after the modern fashion; let them have such with them at their place of working; and if they need specificity of time and place, let them face the Site of the Event, which even now gusheth: 28° 39 N and 88° 23 W or approximately 50 miles S.E. of the Mississippi Delta at the Edge of the Continental Shelf. Should any body desire a greater specificity, let the Culmination coincide with the Hour and Minute said to have marked, in the Evening of the 20th Day of April, 2010 e.v., the Beginning of the Present Tribulation: 9:56.

Let us work together; let us work alone; let us work in groups: sed semper ut rectificando Orbis Terrarum ubique vide in loco supra . May their Enthusiasm be Energized, may their Purpose be, if but for One Magickal Instant, even as tangible, as if it had indeed already come to pass.

Let this globe remain in plain and open view for as many of the People of this Earth to view as is practicable.

May we all achieve That Conversation which is Undefiled Knowledge and Perfected Bliss.

Soror Raphael, I°

Love is the law, love under will.

In its original form:

Oh and here's a link to a DIY globe.. you could make it from parchment if you felt like it -- but in my opinion, it should be more... absorbent...

Then -- there is the twitter feed I started -- I was going to keep it a secret -- but -- well maybe I still will. see if you can find it.
Oh and there is that Black lodge of Santa Cruz thing -- yes this is she -- hello world -- I should one of these days record those lovely days from this female Faust's perspective...

All in all, I quite enjoy this incarnation thing. Quite. Especially when one has a fantastic lover. But not especially when these pathetic excuses for consciousness that somehow reached adulthood lacking mirror neuron number one make a mockery of my beautiful Terra - my home for so long -- ever since I , a pretty monkey with an enticingly bright red butt - first saw the star people up in the heavens and convinced my girlfriends to turn around and stick our butts up in the air... -- merely a myth people. Don't get out your red pencils. Besides, its no fair with the cross-blog-critical-theories. They won't hold up unless you also drink a cup of my coffee.

you can walk a mile in my shoes
but you can't dance a step in my feet

... where was I? make a mockery of my beautiful Terra -- then imply its my fauslt for wanting to stay warm...

Join the Landless Peasant Party. Power to the People because the People want Peace. Power to the People that Anarchy may thrive, as it should, somewhere other than in the hands of these fucking assholes. Fuck them for thinking that winning is everything -- for thinking that constitutes winning.

Be seeing you -- and 93...

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this is a creature that was called by my name
so though only a picture I saw my Self just the same